Both of them feel they should have been together. It would have been wonderful to read, write, dissect, reflect and exchange ideas and world views. Night after night. In the midst of ordinariness of life.
People think she’s flamboyant. They find her cool. But you see people see themselves differently. She feels the flamboyance is actually a kind of cover up for all the years of longing she has kept within her. Lest the brutal world will shred her soul.
Over cups of black tea and Farida Khanum’s soul-stirring music, she tells to her friends, “Love and loss mean the same. I have loved only one man in my life and lost him so many times that in the process love and loss are intertwined.”
One friend asks, “What makes you stay attracted?”
“Tenacity and ability to look at the world like a sharp knife. It’s gratifying to see someone cutting the flab/the excess and hold on to the essence. Something like holding a knife and peeling the yellow skin of a mango. A simple yet meaningful act. There’s immense beauty in it. Probably, that’s why I am always attracted to austerity, melancholy, bareness. Excess is vulgar.”
There was silence in the room. Silence can be sharp too.